Sometimes it’s easy to be “that” person when everyone is looking, “that” person that has it all together, “that” person that knows God’s perfect plan and is moving forward in complete surrender to His will. “That” person who never struggles with doubt or fear, “that” person who loves with sincerity and openness of heart never struggling with feelings of jealousy or envy. “That” person who trusts God completely, knowing He is working all things for our good and His glory in His perfect time.
Yet, in the quiet of the darkness of night and in the break of first morning’s light when no one but God is near, the facade of “that” person disappears and the reality of who we are is made known.
1 Samuel 16:7 “But the Lord said unto Samuel, Look not on his countenance, or on the height of his stature; because I have refused him: for the Lord seeth not as man seeth; for man looketh on the outward appearance, but the Lord looketh on the heart.”
We are often fooled by what we see outwardly, but God sees the heart. He knows the reality of who we are when no one else is near. He sees our hurt, our pain, our doubt, our pride, our sin.
Psalm 139:1-4 “O Lord, thou hast searched me, and known me. Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off. Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways. For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O Lord, thou knowest it altogether.”
God sees every action and every thought, He knows us inside and out; yet, in our imperfect state His thoughts are still toward us and in that is the most amazing of all truths.
Psalm 139:16-17 “Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them. How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them!”
The reality of the true extent of His desire to be with us when no one else is near, knowing us for who we really are should enable us to live in the freedom of that realization. In Him we do not have to be “that” person, we can be exactly who we are, a person saved by His grace as a result of and despite our imperfection.
Thus, we can live as we are when no one else but God is near fully confident in who we are in Him. We are free to be honest, allowing others to see our vulnerabilities in all humbleness knowing God can use our brokenness to reach a world that is broken.
Ephesians 2:3-5,8-10 “Among whom also we all had our conversation in times past in the lusts of our flesh, fulfilling the desires of the flesh and of the mind; and were by nature the children of wrath, even as others. But God, who is rich in mercy, for his great love wherewith he loved us, Even when we were dead in sins, hath quickened us together with Christ, (by grace ye are saved;)” “For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast. For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus unto good works, which God hath before ordained that we should walk in them.”